There is no clear cut answer to your question but what I do want to encourage you to do is really to build your relationship with God. I have found that all that I need is found in Christ. His love and grace is more than sufficient to satisfy my longing for a relationship.
Hangang Dito Na Lang
Marami na tayong pagsubok na pinaagdaanan atating nalampasan. Sa pagkakataaong ito hindi ko alam kung makakaya pa natin, kung ikaw mismo ang bumitaw.
Pilit ko mang isipin at kumbinsihin ang sarili ko na hindi ito totoo, ngunit sa huli kelangang tangapin na hindi ka na akin.
Dapat ko ngang sisihin ang sarili ko, mas pinili kong mangibam bansa para sa pangarap ko kesa sa makasama ka. Ngunit isa ka sa mga pangarap na ito.
Maari ngang hangang dito nalang tayo, Sana makayanan kung bbumuo g isang pangarap na hindi ka kasama.
Paalam. Kung tayo nga sa isa’t-isa maaring pagtatagpuin parin tayo ng tadhana

I thank you, Lord, for the wonder of my being, for giving me another day to love and serve you. May I often think of you during it! Inspire everything do and say this day. May it all begin from you and, with all your unfailing help, be carried through for your glory; through Christ our Lord. Amen.

“O Lord, behold here before You a soul who exists in this world in order to allow You to exercise Your admirable MERCY and manifest it before heaven and earth. Others may glorify You through their faithfulness and perseverance, thus making evident the power of Your grace. How sweet and generous You are to those who are faithful to You!
Nevertheless, I will glorify You by acquainting others of Your goodness to sinners and by reminding them that Your MERCY is above all malice, that nothing can exhaust it, and that no relapse, no matter how shameful or criminal, should allow the sinner to despair of forgiveness.
I have offended You grievously, O Beloved Redeemer, but it would be still worse if I were to offend You by thinking that You were lacking in goodness to forgive me. I would rather He deprive me of everything else than the TRUST I have in Your Mercy.
Should I fall a hundred times or should my crimes be a hundred times worse that they actually are, I would continue to trust in Your MERCY. Amen”

